After the Show With Marisa Calvi – August 10, 2013

We had a wide-ranging discussion today. We began with talking about taking our power back from linear time and the exigencies and imperatives of linear time.

Marisa shared the importance for her of letting go of expectations of what will be done by such and such a time. “I’ll have this much money in the bank… I’ll have this job or that career… I’ll have gotten all of these errands done by 5:00 pm…”

Susan shared by example how she feels into things, feels her physical body, how her body is feeling, her emotions too, and then speaks. “Let me feel into that…”

Susan shared also that the greatest freedom that she has experienced so far is to know “that I am.”

That got us into a discussion about freedom.

I had the insight that freedom is listening to myself and acting on that truth. Marisa was sharing when I had that insight and she was touching on that herself and helped me to realized that freedom is listening to myself.

I shared that when we state our intention to free ourself or to empower ourself… for example, “I am empowering myself to become a leader in my field” we might then have fear come up, doubt, anxiety or things might happen around us that seem to be obstacles, blocks, bad luck… And speaking for myself, I’ve always thought of these emerging doubts and fears as signs of my own weakness and inability to follow through on my intention. Because of something that I heard from the Pleiadian Collective channeled through Nora Herold (www.noraherold.com) from her August 6, 2013 teleconference, I now can see these emerging doubts and fears and obstacles as opportunities to acknowledge and learn from and send love to that within myself which has been a block in the past. As I state the intention, the fear or doubt comes up because it is there to be released. When it is acknowledged and released, then I am indeed free and able to accomplish all that I have intended to accomplish or be all that I have intended to be.

Susan shared a tradition of the Lakota people of North America that says that the greatest warrior does no harm. He carries not a weapon, but a coup stick, which is a weapon transformed into a work of art as a long stick with a curved front so that it cannot harm the other. His greatest achievement is to touch his opponent with this stick without himself being harmed. Susan believes that we are coming to a time when there is no more war.

We all agreed that we are, as a collective, all of humanity, opening up to freedom and acknowledging and releasing all the blocks and barriers to freedom that still exist both within us and in our societies.

Marisa shared her view that liberation is here, but that people do not know what to do with it.

Freedom comes when we take responsibility   for our own actions and for our own experiences. Marisa shared about this, as did Susan.

The ultimate freedom for all of us, is to acknowledge and know that I am God also. We could have spoken more of this, but our time was up.

I have to say that it was wonderful talking to Marisa. She is in the process of putting the finishing touches on her latest book, written with the help of Master Kuthumi, whom she channels and draws a great deal of guidance and wisdom from. Marisa’s website, very nicely laid out and informative, is http://www.newenergywriting.com

You are God also.

 

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After the show with Matt Kahn, August 3, 2013

First of all, the energy was amazing and really, the energy conveyed so much. The words are a sort of extra thing.

Matt answered my question about empowering himself to become the divine essence embodied as he is by saying that he always felt connected and guided, from a very young age. But he also said that when he realized that those Ascended Masters that were guiding him and he, the one being guided, were one, then he realized himself as the living embodiment of that divine essence that is love.

He began to see everybody else in the world around him as an opportunity to offer blessings. And he grew in his divinity by what he chose to offer to them. So, all that he offered to them as blessings became his experience and his blessing also.

He began to make always the choice to demonstrate and express his highest virtue, which was and is love. And he realized that all hearts are touched by every breath. It is instantaneous and effortless. It is the divine that we ARE, radiating outward from us.

I believe that Matt is a living example of what we are all becoming, and as such, he speaks volumes to us at this time because we are there. We are ready for his presence among us.

Matt was an empath, as so many of us are, and he was very confused in his feelings because he was feeling the emotions and energies of others and thinking that those were their feelings towards him. He found it difficult to feel connected and felt insecurity around that. He had a difficult time feeling part of the world. And many of us have had similar challenges. Eventually, he realized that nothing in this world will make him feel different about himself. Thus, he surrendered to his feeling and the misperceptions vanished. Then he was able to live as the light and the love that he is and that we are.

Now, he knows himself as no attribute, no quality, no personality, but rather as all of them. And I felt this within him as we were talking together.

He doesn’t need to give or receive information, only to give and receive love. And this is the way of the Master.

He mentioned that Aha moments are wonderful, but if you are not having Aha moments, it is because you are already there; you don’t need them. You already have realized that.

He mentioned, “I am what I am channeling.” And as one who channels also, I found that very helpful.

He also invited us to wake up from needing to use our minds so much. We don’t need to understand. We can just know whatever we know and trust that we know all when we need to know it.

“Why should I decide what I am, when there is nothing that I am not?”

Matt said a couple of other things that really resonated for me. He said,

that when you send love to yourself, you transform the cells in your body and that our willingness to love ourselves and to relax into all experience transforms the world. He said, “Don’t fight it; love it.”

He said, “This is the most loving thing I can do for myself.” Just say that before you eat something or light up a cigarette or watch a film… and your own being will guide you to that which is truly the most loving thing that you can do for yourself.

What you desire is only what expresses your highest virtue.

Set your intention and then make choices about what turns up for you that align with your intention.

Send love to your heart when your mind is active. When your mind is active, overly active, it is acting like an alarm to tell you to send love to your heart. Your heart will then open and your mind will become quiet. An open heart means a quiet mind. A loud mind is a signal to send love to your heart and center in your heart. Then your heart will open. Your mind will become quiet again. I’ll try this out and see if it works for me as a practice.

This show was a joy for us all. Listening to it will bring the benefits of Matt’s words, but even more so of Matt’s energy, which is divine. Literally divine.

 

Manape LaMere and Frank LaMere honoring Reuben Snake

HONORING REUBEN SNAKE

“THE EAGLE THAT SITS ATOP THE STAFF FROM WHICH HANGS THIS COUNTRY’S SYMBOL OF JUSTICE AND DEMOCRACY, THAT IS MY LAWYER.  THAT IS THE INTERCEDER BETWEEN HUMAN BEINGS AND THE CREATOR OF ALL THINGS.  THAT IS MY UNDERSTANDING OF THE INDIAN WAY OF LIFE.”

I HEARD REUBEN SNAKE SAY THESE THINGS AS HE CAMPAIGNED TO BE THE CHAIRMAN OF THE NATIONAL CONGRESS OF AMERICAN INDIANS.  I REMEMBER HIS WORDS AND I REPEAT THEM QUITE OFTEN.

I KNEW REUBEN SNAKE WHEN I WAS A YOUNG MAN.  MY INTERACTION WITH HIM WAS INFREQUENT BUT IT WAS ALWAYS MEANINGFUL, INSIGHTFUL AND PURPOSEFUL.  WHEN I LOOK BACK AND REFLECT ON THE DISCUSSIONS WE HAD OF THE PAST, THE PRESENT AND THE FUTURE I CANNOT HELP BUT THINK THAT OUR COMING TOGETHER WAS BIGGER THAN US. THAT IT WAS PRE-ORDAINED AND GUIDED BY THE CREATOR THAT GOOD WOULD COME OF IT FOR THE FAMILIES, THE CLANS, AND THE PEOPLE.

THAT IS THE WAY WE USED TO SEE THINGS AND IT IS THROUGH THAT LENS THAT I REFLECT BACK AND GIVE TESTAMENT TO THIS MAN TODAY.   IT IS AN HONOR TO DO SO AND INDEED A GREAT PRIVILEGE TO BE ASKED TO SHARE SOME THOUGHTS WITH YOU AS WE BEGIN THIS HOMECOMING CELEBRATION.

REUBEN WAS A MENTOR TO ALL AMONG THE PEOPLE WHO WOULD LISTEN.  ALL THAT I HAVE DONE AND ALL THAT I HOPE TO DO IS BECAUSE OF HIM AND OTHER WINNEBAGO PEOPLE WHO TAUGHT US THAT IT IS OKAY TO BE BOLD, TO STEP FORWARD AND TO TELL EVERYONE THAT THE WINNEBAGOES ARE HERE AND THAT YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE TO LISTEN TO WHAT THEY HAVE TO SAY.

THAT IS BECAUSE IT WAS THE WINNEBAGO WHO FIRST CONSECRATED THE GROUND ON WHICH WE LIVE, GROW AND FLOURISH. WHO FIRST ASKED FOR BOUNTIFUL HARVEST, FOR A GOOD HUNT AND FOR PROTECTION FROM THE ELEMENTS.  IN EXCHANGE FOR THIS WE PROMISED TO BE GOOD STEWARDS OF THE LAND AND TO BE MINDFUL OF THE GENERATIONS WHO WILL COME AFTER US.  COVENANTS HAVE BEEN MADE AND COVENANTS MUST BE RESPECTED.

REUBEN SNAKE UNDERSTOOD THE COVENANTS THOUGH THEY ARE NOT WRITTEN IN STONE.  THEY ARE CARRIED IN THE HEARTS OF MEN WHO WILL LEAD AND WILL SPEAK AND ACT IN DEFENSE OF THE PEOPLE. REUBEN WAS ONE WHO CHOSE TO ACT AND WHO CHOSE TO LEAD.

HE DEFENDED HIS CULTURE, HIS TRADITIONS, HIS RELIGIOUS FREEDOM AND HIS INDIAN PEOPLE.  HIS BATTLES ARE CHRONICLED, HIS VISION WAS CLEAR, AND HIS VICTORIES ARE STILL CELEBRATED!  HE AUTHORED BEING INDIAN IS, A SNAPSHOT OF NATIVE EXISTENCE AND STRUGGLE WHICH REMAINS A MUST READ FOR WINNEBAGOES AND ALL INDIAN PEOPLE TODAY.

HE HELPED TO MOLD MANY OF MY BELIEFS.  “THERE ARE NO LITTLE PEOPLE,” HE SAID. I HAVE COME TO KNOW THIS AND BELIEVE THAT THERE ARE NO INSIGNIFICANT PEOPLE AMONG US.  NO ONE IS GREATER OR LESSER THAN THE NEXT. MAO-UNA HAS GIVEN TO EACH AND EVERY PERSON GATHERED, CERTAIN TALENTS AND ABILITIES TO BE USED NOT ONLY FOR THEMSELVES BUT FOR ALL OF THE PEOPLE. I DO NOT HAVE TO TELL YOU THAT REUBEN GAVE HIMSELF TO THE PEOPLE AND HE LEFT HIS FAMILY AND THIS SIDE OF MAO-UNA’S CREATION MUCH TOO EARLY.

REUBEN HAS BEEN CHARACTERIZED BY ALL AS A HUMBLE MAN AND I RECOGNIZE HIM AS SUCH EVEN ON THIS OCCASION SO LONG AFTER HE HAS LEFT.  I DO SO FOR A REASON.  THERE ARE MANY IN OUR SOCIETY AND EVEN AMONG THE TRIBES WHO RAISE THEIR VOICES FOR SOME STATED PURPOSE AND ANNOUNCE TO ALL THAT THEY ARE HUMBLE MEN WHO LIVE HUMBLE LIVES.  I DARE SAY THAT TO SPEAK OF YOUR HUMILITY ONLY SHOWS YOUR VANITY AND YOUR FAILURE TO UNDERSTAND THAT YOUR WHOLE LIFE IS A SEARCH FOR HUMILITY AND THAT ONLY ON YOUR DEPARTING DAY AND THE YEARS AFTER WILL YOU BE JUDGED AS TO HOW YOU LIVED YOUR LIFE.  WHEN WE DEPART AND OTHERS SPEAK OF US IT SHOULD BE OUR HOPE THAT ONE MAN RISE UP AND SAY TO ALL THAT HE WAS A GOOD AND HUMBLE MAN.  ONLY THEN WILL WE KNOW THAT WE HAVE ATTAINED THE HUMILITY THAT WE SOUGHT AND THAT WE WILL HAVE LIVED A GOOD LIFE.

REUBEN SNAKE FOUND THE HUMILITY HE SOUGHT, HUMILITY THAT ELUDES THE REST OF US.  ALL HERE CALL HIM A HUMBLE MAN AND ALL OF THE INDIAN NATIONS HAVE JOINED THE WINNEBAGO PEOPLE IN ECHOING WHAT WE KNOW TO BE TRUE.  THAT IS GOOD!

REUBEN WAS A MAN WHO POSSESSED A CLEAR AND LASTING VISION, A DEMONSTRATED WISDOM AND THE FORESIGHT THAT HAS BROUGHT THE WINNEBAGO PEOPLE TO WHERE WE ARE TODAY.  THERE CAN BE NO ARGUMENT ABOUT THAT!

IN HIS LIFETIME;

REUBEN AUTHORED AND SHEPHERDED THROUGH THE TRIBAL COUNCIL A SELF-SUFFICIENCY PLAN FOR THE PEOPLE THAT IS BEING RECOGNIZED AND SEEN AS THE VEHICLE FOR POSITIVE CHANGE THAT IS EVIDENT IN THE COMMUNITY AND AMONG THE WINNEBAGO PEOPLE TODAY.  HE HAD VISION.

HE GUIDED THE EFFORTS OF THE NATIONAL CONGRESS OF AMERICAN INDIANS AND FOUGHT FOR REPATRIATION AND TO HELP SECURE RELIGIOUS FREEDOMS FOR NATIVE PEOPLE EVERYWHERE.

HE BROUGHT INDIAN SPIRITUAL LEADERS FROM THROUGHOUT NORTH AMERICA TO WINNEBAGO TO PRAY FOR THE PEOPLE AND FOR MOTHER EARTH.  IT IS ACKNOWLEDGED AS THE GREATEST EARTH DAY OBSERVANCE EVER EXPERIENCED IN INDIAN COUNTRY TO THIS DAY!

REUBEN WORKED TO EMPOWER THE WINNEBAGO PEOPLE AND ALL NATIVE AMERICANS POLITICALLY AND SPOKE OF OUR NEED TO TAKE OUR RIGHTFUL PLACE IN THE PROCESS.  HE WAS ONE OF A HANDFUL OF INDIAN LEADERS WHO STRATEGIZED AND UTILIZED THE DEMOCRATIC PARTY TO GET THIS DONE.  THEY FORMED THE NATIONAL INDIAN DEMOCRATS WHO GAVE ME THE FORUM TO BECOME THE FIRST AND LONGEST SERVING NATIVE AMERICAN ON THE DEMOCRATIC NATIONAL COMMITTEE AND THE CHAIR OF THE NATIVE AMERICAN CAUCUS AT SEVERAL NATIONAL CONVENTIONS. IT CAN BE SAID THAT I, AS A WINNEBAGO, WAS ONE OF FOUR NATIVE AMERICAN SUPER DELEGATES TO ELECT BARACK OBAMA AS THE DEMOCRATIC NOMINEE FOR PRESIDENT IN 2008.  IT MUST ALSO BE NOTED CHAIRMAN BLACKHAWK IS WIDELY RECOGNIZED FOR THE POLITICAL SUPPORT THAT HE BRINGS TO STATE AND NATIONAL ELECTIONS AND THAT HE HAS MADE THE WINNEBAGOES MUCH SOUGHT AFTER POLITICAL ALLIES!  REUBEN’S DIRECTION THAT WE EMPOWER OURSELVES DID NOT FALL ON DEAF EARS AND HAS DEFINITELY NOT GONE UNHEEDED. HE WAS A ROLE MODEL IN THIS REGARD.  HIS TENURE AS A STAFF ADVISOR FOR SENATOR BOB KERREY LENT TO HIS RESOLVE THAT OUR PEOPLE BE HEARD!  WE HAVE A BIG VOICE!!

IN THE 1990’S REUBEN TALKED OF A NEW NEO-LIBERAL APPROACH THAT WAS BEING PROPOSED BY THE U.S. GOVERNMENT THAT WOULD AFFECT OUR BROTHERS SOUTH OF THE BORDER.  IT REMAINED IN THE BACK OF MY MIND AS HE SAID WE MUST FIGHT IT AND TRY TO ENGAGE LAWMAKERS WHO WOULD SUPPORT THE MISGUIDED EFFORT, LATER CALLED THE NORTH AMERICAN FREE TRADE AGREEMENT.   I TRAVELED TO CHIAPAS IN SOUTHERN MEXICO TO TALK TO INDIGENOUS PEOPLE AND ZAPATISTA REBEL SUPPORTERS WHO WERE OPPOSED TO THE EFFORT AND ADVISED SENATOR JIM EXON WHO WANTED TO KNOW WHAT THE

IMPACT WOULD BE ON INDIGENOUS PEOPLE.  IT WAS TO NO AVAIL!  NAFTA WAS PASSED AND DISAFFECTS INDIAN PEOPLE EVEN TODAY.  REUBEN SNAKE KNEW OF THIS NEO-LIBERAL DICTATE AND SPOKE OF IT!  SUCH WAS HIS WISDOM AND FORESIGHT!

I ONCE WROTE A SPEECH AT REUBEN’S REQUEST AS HE WAS BEING HONORED IN WASHINGTON, D.C. AND MADE A MEMBER OF THE NEBRASKA SOCIETY.  BECAUSE OF TIME LIMITS HE COULD NOT USE IT.  HE TOLD ME THAT IT WAS A GOOD SPEECH AS IT ACKNOWLEDGED HIS WORK AND HIS LEGACY AND THAT HE LOOKED FORWARD TO USING IT.  THAT OPPORTUNITY WOULD NEVER COME.

I OFFER THAT HE TRUSTED ME YEARS AGO TO SAY WHAT WAS FITTING AND APPROPRIATE.  HE KNEW THAT I WOULD DO THE BEST I COULD.  I HAVE TRIED TO DO THAT TODAY.  I THINK HE WOULD APPROVE OF THIS MISSIVE THAT I SHARE FOR HIS FAMILY AND THE PEOPLE.

REUBEN SNAKE AND THOSE WINNEBAGO LEADERS WHO SHARE HIS VISION HAVE GOTTEN US TO WHERE WE ARE TODAY, AND WILL CONTINUE TO GUIDE US INTO THE FUTURE.  THOSE WE HONOR HERE BY FLYING THEIR FLAGS GAVE US ALL THE RIGHT TO SHARE IN THAT VISION AND TO BE HEARD.

“THE EAGLE THAT SITS ATOP THE STAFF FROM WHICH HANGS THIS COUNTRY’S SYMBOL OF JUSTICE AND DEMOCRACY, THAT IS MY LAWYER.” HIS WORDS ARE HIS LEGACY. HIS WORK FOR THE PEOPLE HIS TESTAMENT.  AND HIS LOVE FOR ALL HIS RELATIONS WILL ENDURE UNTIL THE SNAKE FAMILY IS NO MORE.  REUBEN SNAKE IS FOREVER.  REMEMBER HIM AS YOU GATHER.

PI-NAH-GI-GI.

~Frank LaMere, 7/25/13

Empowering Ourselves as We Contemplate the Divine – notes from the July 13 show

For me, lately, there is tremendous presence of the sacred and the divine in the moment if I am fully present in the moment.

Niki joined us in the talking circle and said that she doesn’t understand the need for connection to the divine, connection to God, because there is no separation. Separation from God is an illusion. Niki added that she sees the world as her church and every experience as sacred interaction with God. God is all there is.

I absolutely agree with this, resonate with this, and I feel joy to share this with Niki.

Niki said that she doesn’t understand having to go into another state of being in order to be close to God, for example, going into meditation or into a trance state to access the divine wisdom of our higher selves, which are divine. I would love to ‘be where Niki is at’ in that sense. But I am not there.

I know that there is nothing that is not an expression, an emanation or manifestation of Creator, Source, God. Yet in my day to day being, I sometimes lose sight of that. Less and less now, but I cannot say that I am always consciously aware of that truth.

Wherever people are, in their relationship with God, whatever their way of connecting with God and with the divine, is exactly where they should be. This is true for all people on the planet. It can’t be true only for some of us; it can only be true for all of us. So those who some would call fanatical or fundamentalist or even radically religious are connecting with the divine in the way that is in resonance with them in that moment. And that too is an expression of God.

So, we joyfully celebrate the individual’s interpretation of God’s energy, of the divine in the world and of their relationship to that.

By the same truth, we trust completely our own knowing and feeling about the divine, about God. Otherwise, we are literally giving our power away. “I must be wrong, because you are right.”

We are all right. We are all exactly where we should be in our relationship with God.

When we feel joyful in our own relationship with the divine and can trust that everyone is where they should be in their relationship with the divine, then we can trust our inner guidance, trust ourselves enough to be able to explore different beliefs, rituals, ways of celebrating life, celebrating physicality, the joining of flesh and spirit that is what it means to be human, with no fear of having our relationship with God weakened or lessened in any way. Instead it is expanding and expansive.

Susan spoke of her friend exploring commonalities between Native American spirituality and Wiccan / Norse spirituality, or between Native American spirituality and Christian spirituality. Having the courage and the curiosity to do this is empowering and expansive.

We can be who we are in relation to the divine and accept all others as they are in relation to the divine. In this way, we joyfully celebrate the diversity of the ALL that IS.

I mentioned my devotion to the Christ and to Yeshua and how that brings me into resonance with Christians, although I do not call myself Christian. I do not put Christ on a pedestal because that implies once again that separation from God. Niki said that she perceives Yeshua to be her equal. I agree. I perceive Yeshua to be helping me from another dimension, but not above me, not more holy than me.

I walk now with the spirit of my own divine Self in my heart, knowing that I am – that we all are – as powerful as He was and is, as sacred and perfect and divine as He was and is.

Lu

After the Show with Frank LaMere – Taking Our Power Back by Using it

Frank’s message about taking our power back was so simple, yet it was powerful. I felt empowered and enabled by his message.

Frank’s message was simply to act, to choose, to do, to take that step.

So, power is not something that we should talk about as if it is something that we can hold in our hands or take from someone or give to someone. Power is the ability to do, to act, or to produce. Power is doing, taking that step.

Last autumn, I was feeling helpless and overwhelmed by all the work to be done on part of the land that I own and therefore have to take responsibility for. Part of the 10 acres that I steward (aka own) is a pipeline easement. It runs up the far boundary of our property line for a good 600 feet and is about 60 feet wide or more.  It gets a lot of sun and provides habitat for sun-loving plant species and the animals that thrive from those species. Rabbits, grouse and field mice do very well there. In turn, those animals help the foxes and coyotes to do well, since they prey on the rabbits, mice and grouse. There are also wild turkeys living there. Also porcupines and raccoons.

For me, the pipeline provides a stunning view into the Sutton River valley and beyond to the westwood hills and Mount Pinnacle. It is the only year-round view on my heavily wooded property.

Last autumn, I contemplated having to clear or pay someone to clear the young birches and pines that were beginning to take over on the pipeline from the blackberry brambles and wild spirea. I did about five hours of work back there and it was rough work, but it left me feeling empowered. I could take care of the pipeline as an ‘open canopy’ (aka full sun) species habitat for the forseeable future. If I did a little bit at a time, if I dedicated about five or six hours every spring and every fall to doing the work, I could keep it under control.

What I didn’t want to do was to just leave it to grow and grow, turning a meadow into a young forest with trees becoming harder and harder to cut down. There is a lot of forest around here – tens of thousands of acres of forest. There are lawns and gardens and there are farmers’ fields. The habitat that is most rare in this area is wild meadowland offering plenty of sunshine to flowering grasses and small bushes, which is exactly what the pipeline offers to the species that thrive in that habitat.

So, just by doing it, just by taking that step and taking ownership and responsibility for it, I empowered myself and went from feeling helpless and overwhelmed, to feeling able, strong, capable and empowered.

And I think that is what Frank LaMere was reminding us of in his words in the Talking Circle on Saturday, April 20. Power is the ability to do, to act, to produce. When we do nothing to exercise that power, we forget that we have it and we then feel powerless. All we have to do to reclaim our power is to start using it again.

For a link to the show with Frank Lamere, click here.  

After the Show – first in a series on Taking Our Power Back – with guest Lisa Singh

Lisa Singh is a ‘Master Mediator’ and works in the fields of conflict resolution, intercultural communication and facilitation for creative problem solving. Lisa has also worked in the field of restorative justice. She has written of herself:

“I work with the Dayton Mediation Center because I believe in the power of others to solve their own problems. I also believe that being a mediator present in the moment of conflict provides a unique opportunity for people to see a different perspective that opens the door towards a decision – a decision that can transform everything!”

This allows me, Lu, to move easily into an exploration of those moments when we take our power back, making a decision, or a choice, that can transform our lives.

So, Lisa shared with us that taking our power back is not easy. We might wish that it was, or think that it should be, but it is not. It involves a lot of thought and a lot of time.

It is in recognizing our own power, our strengths and our abilities that we begin. But it is also in recognizing our weaknesses and forgiving ourselves for what we’ve been, and for what we’ve done, that we would like to have been different than it was. These are not permanent. We can change them. They are not failures. They are experiences that we can then make new choices from.

Taking our power back is a process. We recognize where we feel disempowered, recognize, or begin to recognize, how that feels for us, and then we realize that we gave our power away in that situation or in that relationship and therefore, we can take it back.

Addiction of any kind is an obvious example of this. But it can also be a work situation or a habit… Lisa mentioned procrastination as a sign for her of an area of her life where she feels unable or disempowered. Sometimes, we find ourselves avoiding a person because we don’t want to be that way, in other words, we don’t want to be the way that person defines us. I think of my older sister in this regard; she still sees me as needing her guidance and her advice and I don’t see myself that way and don’t choose to.

Stopping to look at and identify our thoughts and feelings helps us to be more authentic. Knowing of ourselves who we are and what we are willing to do and what we are unwilling to do, helps us to bring our authentic selves to situations and relationships. Part of taking our power back is being completely honest with ourselves about ourselves.

So how do we tune in with ourselves to become more aware?

I begin sentences with the words “I feel… “ And Susan mentioned that using the phrase “I experience the feeling of… reminds us that we can change that experience.

Lisa gave us the insight of asking why. So, I feel uncomfortable… or I feel anxious… Why do I feel that way? And the answer to the question can often take us into some of our core beliefs or responses that have been learned from our families when we were very young. In my family, yelling was completely unacceptable. In my husband’s family yelling and even getting physical with siblings and so on, was acceptable. One day, my husband and I went to visit his mother. He and his mother began to yell and swear at each other and I was so uncomfortable and actually appalled by their behavior and then they both just burst out laughing and smiled broadly at each other and I realized that they were completely okay with the yelling and swearing. It was easy and fun for them to communicate with each other in that way.

We can also ask ourselves the question, “Where and when do I feel safe?”

Peggy shared with us her wisdom. She said, “The more we sit and give ourselves the time to identify our feelings, the more aware we can become.” She also encouraged us to allow ourselves to be vulnerable and to allow ourselves to be imperfect, to not even aspire to be perfect, rather to aspire to embrace ourselves exactly the way we are – feeling in the core of ourselves that we are okay, even perfectly okay, deep within, in the heart of us. Peggy encouraged us to embrace our wholeness, the sum total of what we are.

Brenda also shared with us that it is empowering to observe objectively, both ourselves and other people. She encouraged us to be observant and to be aware.

This talking circle included Susan, Lisa, Peggy, Brenda and myself. I thoroughly enjoyed hearing so many voices.

It seems that taking our power back means becoming more aware of our own feelings and being and acting from that awareness.

 

 

After the Show with Marisa on March 23, 2013

After the show with Marisa on March 23, 2013, I resonate with the idea that what we experience physically is an illusion and is our human creation. We can let go of all of our experiences after we’ve had them. For me, I had the sense earlier this morning while walking that it is all just stories, and even my being aware of the fact that it is stories is part of my story.

Marisa feels that freeing ourselves of expectations about where and how and what we should be is very liberating. Because being bound by those expectations takes us out of self-love and into judgement.

What we are doing is always perfect, says Marisa. I keep saying, “I’m always where I should be, as I should be.”

Kuthumi had told Marisa that this moment is as good as it gets and that is a HUGE reminder to me always to not judge my experiences as good or bad. I came here for experience, experience of all kinds.

Acceptance, gratitude, appreciation of the Now is just really loving. It is also the divinity within us making itself felt as these attributes of acceptance, gratitude, appreciation, are attributes of the divine.

Marisa brought out the idea that “I need to change myself or the situation because something’s wrong.” And just seeing how there is judgement in that idea. So change it to “I love myself and my experience and then I move forward into the next experience of myself and the world.” And this is a real challenge for many of the people whom Marisa works with and speaks with. And it is a real challenge for me as well. I seem to have chosen, in this lifetime, to struggle a bit, to grapple a bit, with the ideas and feelings around wanting and desire.

One of the things that Marisa said that really rang bells for me was that health and abundance are the biggest triggers that we give ourselves to take ourselves out of love, acceptance and trust. I suddenly realized as I listened to her during the show that when we are able to stay in our love, acceptance and trust, that those triggers will disappear. Triggers are our own creations, our way of growing forward into being the love embodied and expressed that we have come here to be. Triggers are the places where we need to grow into the ability to love. Jamye Price said something very similar when she was on our show, during her first visit. She said that we bring love to places where there was no love before. I thought that was a beautiful image at the time, and I feel that I understand it even better now after hearing what Marisa had to say.

Marisa did also say that when we feel we are finished being triggered by something, it will try again to trigger us, will come back hard to test us. That is our own self making sure that we have accomplished what we had chosen to accomplish. Have I really brought love and acceptance to this aspect of my humanity? Now, I see my recent struggles with the integration of my divinity within my humanity in a new light.

One trigger for me is the phrase “I have to…” because I tend to fill my days with that. Marisa says, “No, I don’t. I’m God also.” And she uses this marvelous idea of saying, “Is this pattern really larger and more powerful than God?”

Is this pattern of fearing lack actually larger and more powerful than the divine I AM? I think not.

Susan brought in a beautiful image that the world supports her. Her office, her car, her dog, her home, all of these externalizations of her being support her in a loving way. The world supports me.

And finally, Marisa spoke of theself as Creator in a casual way that charmed me. “I created this. All of it. I created it. When I’m done with it, I’ll create something else.”

I tend toward feelings of entrapment in my humanity and that sense of freedom, of being the creator of my life, is a timely reminder to me that I am not trapped in my own creation; I create the feeling of being trapped and can change it in an instant.

Once again, Talking Stick Radio has blessed me this morning.